Ok.. lol. I am not good at journals but recently I have had quite a few things to jot down. I was engaged over the passed couple years but in January I broke it off. Yeah It came as a surprise to me, but I don't think it would've worked out as well as we thought it would later down the road. Sure I didn't want to but somehow I am also very glad I did. Aaron was an amazing guy but he and I both changed, he was a great friend to me. As time passed Money became an issue, he was in the military I just graduated high school, trying to get out on my own, and things just weren't working. He needs someone to be there for him and I couldn't do that. I didn't want to live a life moving every time he had to. I know how that is and it's hard on the family. I just chose not to lead down that path and end it on good terms while I am ahead. I am turning 19 next month I don't want to get married yet nor talk about raising a family.

I have this amazing guy I have recently been dating, His name is Erich. I don't even know how to describe him. We click so well, we have probably too much fun on the phone for our own health. lol. I just feel so.. I dunno how to describe it. He just makes me feel like the Angel he says I am. He truly makes me feel amazing. I am visiting him sometime around, hopefully for, My birthday next month. I really can't wait to meet him for the first time. We've been internet pen pals for about 5 yrs now, we share photos, poetry, artwork, phone calls. I have always wanted to really meet him and now I am. Call me silly but the thought makes me just giggle. Lol. He means the world to me and I can't wait till I can hug him in person. He has seen me in my best and my worst, and all my inbetweens. He is one of the closest most amazing friends I have. I honestly can say I love this guy. Erich just brightens my day no matter what mood I am in and he makes me so happy I could just Explode.

Well I am moving Into my new apartment soon, with a couple good friends of mine. It's gonna be a blast. I am going to get a scanner soon so I can post some of my pencil artwork. I hope You all have as good of a week as I am because today is payday and I should be off now.

~Siene Engel~